I love you.
The pain you feel is the pain i caused,
It was not necessary but nor was it intentional,
Believe me when you read this,
I miss how we were and the closeness we felt,
I miss the long chats we had and the laughter you gave me,
Please know that it was never realise that made me act this way,
Only pain from the past and confusion that blurred my judgment,
What i felt for you, it was real.
I hear now you are falling in love and happy,
I doubt you know how happy that makes me,
I only wish that i could have given you that,
I hope now you have it,
I know you feel as if you were the only one that suffered at the hands of my confusion,
I need you to know this is not true,
If this had happened a little later maybe things would be different,
Maybe i could have given you my heart,
But at the time I had no heart to give,
As it had been with another,
Then shredded into pieces i could not mend,
Maybe someday,
We can know what would happen when i have my heart healed,
But for now, i hope this poem is enough,
It is for you and only you my dear,
It is my feelings,
My soul,
My heart-ache.
I love you.
Dynamics and style. ; 9:04 AM
Just Want You To Know
Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do could protect me from you that night
Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend 'cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were everything, everything to me
I just want you to know that I've been fighting not to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it ALL again
Just want you to know
All the doors are closing I'm tryin' to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day, the day you slipped away
I just want you to know that I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through and then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe that there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say I would do it all again
Just want you to know
That since I lost you, I lost myself
No I can't fake it, there's no one else.
Dynamics and style. ; 9:49 AM
12:40am Tuesday , August 7 07
" She must had been deeply hurt. He's not fit to be in a relationship i guess. He can't even give the things that he owes her. He considered himself heartless, forgotten that he wore her ring before; taken for granted. He tells himself that he should'nt be selfish, just let her go since he lost his heart."
3:15am Tuesday, August 7 07
Everyone has their very own touching, loving , undescribable, romantic story. I've got mine too. In relationship wise, in fact towards everything, i've learn that what's the most valuable, most powerful weapon,The most effective medicine of all and it’s just , LOVE. From LOVE, I’ve found out that no matter hoe bad situation is, no matter your how much your boyfriend has done you wrong, and no matter what wrong he commits, the reason to forgive the wrong is only, LOVE. A story that already exists, was being told to solve and salvage every other mistakes, every wrong that had committed, to let the wrong realize that he’s already at the wrong path. To tell him is to hope he would go back to the right path eventually, and most importantly of all, to realize after being told so much that her love for him is can never be measured, can’t be compared, that the power of love is totally priceless. Even how bad situation can be, how difficult, how complicated things needed to be handled, as we needed both hands in order to create a clap.
And the most important of all, even though he has fallen off the right path, the power of love repents the mistakes of what he commits and gave him a chance. Although, he felt that he himself is not worthy, but things that had been hurt can be amend again. She loves him and believes that he’s the right one after seventeen years being born living in this world, she knows firmly that he can do it.
Although he himself sometimes still thinks that he might get himself lead astray, or start to take things for granted again or going back to the wrong path. But once he ought to realized that the importance of love, the endless amount of love she had give him, that no one’s ever loved him so much other than his parents, is willingly to gave him another chance.
Her love for him tells him that he must do his best to give whatever her expectations is because she had given him everything. Her entire LOVE and he MUST have endless confidence in himself. He’s got to be strong, stronger than anything else, and to be fearless as to kill the fear in him. To let the love overpowered his heart. He no longer scared of failure and he know that she’s the one for him as he believes that GOD gave her to him and to let him know his mistakes. He thanks GOD for giving him, her, that could change his life. He swore before her that he will never shed a tear again as she despise guys that cry, that they doesn’t know what’s the meaning I life that took it for granted. Taking things for granted is not an option, is a failure.
And why she remains independent as always is that she wants to wait for him, for her to b fully rely on. But provided he reaches her expectations first. And him, must work hard in everything he do as he knows she loves him with all her heart that he had to be stronger to meet her expectations. And, that he never cries again.
Her father, whom she most respected of, never cry in front of her before, never cry to show his weak side. That’s what makes her so respect him. And she knows that even though her dad hates her a lot, but she knows deep inside his dad loves her.
He's grateful to her. and you know what, this is just part of the story, the very beginning one.
Dynamics and style. ; 5:51 AM
Girlfriend! I guess you really need a chll pill ever since for a very long time. Boyfriend could sense your difficlt times, struggling and pinning down all the viruses in your body one by one. In fact, i believe everyone has to come into this stage of life before. Your uptight schedules during the week, i understand it's something which isn't easy to handle. it's just 2 days more to your cruise holidays,then you could sit back and take a breather with your family. Go far away, apart from the stressing world that you're stuck in, the uncomfortable zone that you've been facing all week long and not think bout anything. Thinking too much doesn't help one to destress and in fact, is the other way round. Understand girlfriend..? have a good rest tonight and hope you could try accomplish your day to day schedule by the end of your week, doing it slowly and steadily, okay! Boyfriend's only one, always!! =]
Dynamics and style. ; 9:22 AM
Sleep with gui gui! happy family indeed!! haa!
Gui Gui! on your bed. woots woots!Hi Girlfriend!!
I think by the time you reading this, is already our 31 days of being each other's boyfriend and girlfriend!! woots! It's abit long and draggy but i hope you dun mind cos i wanna see how much did i actually remembered from May 1st till now. here it goes.. =) Whahaha..! Although from the start, during the first day of becoming your boyfriend was rather random, but i'm still glad and a little surprised that it still hit it off well for the both of us!! Although, from the very beginning you didnt really got a good impression of me cos never reply your msg, didnt even return call after calling me ,always said that i'll return call but in the end didnt end said i gave excuses that i didnt pay my hp bills etc.. which is the truth! haa!
:p still remembered me asking you for forgiveness in the library,that's where you took pics of me sleeping,and beatrice 'peace' hand sign on it too. trying to solve your personal problems, talking about your school stuffs and things that pressurise you over the phone, before that i still made my first promise to you telling you that if i didnt call you within 15mins time, my name would not call michael and dun have to forgive me anymore!! Whahaha!! =) And maybe is only during then we started getting to know one another better, then on that night you did change your point of view about me right?!?!
If i didnt remembered wrongly, after that night of chat, the next day when we meet out in town and i was meeting you guys outside wisma atria, that's when the day i had become your boyfriend, in a random way. Whoa whoa whoa!!! haha! And of cos after being your boyfriend, nothing to be surprised about that i've still landed in bad circumstances as frequently everyday. Accidentally squashed on the red rose you gave me which you said is the most prettiest ones(i'm not the one who squashed) and gave it to jaz, helped you carry your heavy luggauge you brought for your rehersal for pageant all the way from LSCT blk to the library(WA!), seeing you tears from libaray all the way till the main gate of the school into the bus,(which lead to misunderstanding of wad jas's friend saw), giving consultation on why you tear that day, hopnite , the gorgeous you with 6 LAYERS of foundation man! but still as pretty!! =) , saw me performed ! , that's when i first know your precious gui gui!! woots! helped me massage in russell hse although you yourself are tired, paste the white medicated plaster for me during the massage, shoik dao!! , and slept on one of the sofa, got pics taken by paparazzi(those girls), observing people after woke up, went to sleep again but got elbowed by me and woke up again(ops!) !! haha! , and helping to solve problems of beatrice and mel on and off, went to library's movie corner and watch movies( it's never been more entertaining!!) ,
drawn me a 'boyfriend' and a letter telling me that you are bored and wad lessons you're having, bought me plaster to paste my after canoe symtoms injuries, waiting for me and the canoe guys for dinner , went for the first canoe traning with us!! whoa! , supposed to call me when i was in chalet but overslept too( haha i wait till i slept too) ,was wanting to watch my soccer finals in liquid kitdhen but still thinking where to find a place while still in al-azhaar, it was just along the shop houses nearby but you told me is at HOLLAND! but in the end still watched it in holland. HAHA!! , trying to stop the laughing gas problem among them, fetching you to class and let your friends teased, went to watched pirates of the carribean with you,Jo,des,beatand hs...!! ( that's wad you most wanna watch besides any other movie!) gave me a note (BOYFRIEND GONG GONG) =) thanks!! , and wanted to fetched you to your dance class but didn really felt well, and asked you that question on MSN (you should know wad question) (r you up for being my gf?? hee! although still waiting but nvm! =)) , finished exorcist the movie!! scary right! haa! , and accompany you go art friend at bras basah, i dun mind getting drenched, but it's not opened in public holiday!! teh teh!! whahaha!! =P Joanne and the rest joined u for shrek 3 the movie! , nearly got pancaked by the bus door twice or thrice but luckily not hurt! , touched my smooth hands, touched yours too!! ops! =)
And wad's gonna happened is , on this very moment, most probably i'll be showing you my blog to let you read wad i've got to say and tell you right now while you are reading thru it! and maybe i've already gave you a little something ,as my income is limited nowadays! haha!! =) and probably saturday will be going out for star gazing with you, hope that night would be one of the very special and wonderful night that spent with me. =) at last,to end tis conversation, just wanna say happy 1 month day for my girlfriend, thanks for everything! Loves and Misses to you! =P Enjoy your holidays and smile 100% always !!
From Boyfriend. =) memories worth cherishing shall never forget
Dynamics and style. ; 8:26 AM
Woolala.. 1st post. boring..
Dynamics and style. ; 7:12 AM